December 2003 Archives
Ian Fleming Publications have opened a website promoting Fleming's books.
Central Intelligence Agency: online museum. "Unique collection" illustrating the history of US intelligence.
Lady X: ""Lady X" is a cooperative indie film project that we hope will be a lot of fun and will allow participating filmmakers to show their talent. The general theme is a spy/underworld thriller consisting of episodes made independently by selected filmmakers around the globe. Each episode is approximately 5 minutes long."
"So we thought, who better to pay for it than you, you're her daughter after all," he says cheerfully.
My uncle's neglected to pay for my mother's grave.
My mother is buried in a quiet spot outside the village we used to live in, not far from where I work these days. They picked the headstone. I helped them write the engraving. I was twelve. Twenty-eight years ago.
"Absolutely," I say, because yes, why wouldn't I pay for the upkeep of my parent's resting place? It isn't much, this bill, I can afford it.
I never go. I haven't been in twenty years, perhaps a little less. I've never felt the need. I don't believe in an after life. She's gone. She's not there.
"After all, I'm retired now," he says as if that's any reason to neglect paying for the upkeep of his sister's grave for TWO years.
A lot of things have happened this year that have made me very angry. This is one of them.
There are bills. There is interest. There are insistent little letters from the council. There's this thing hovering between my uncle and me where I know he was never good for anything and he's blissfully unaware.
I will pay the money. I will make the phonecalls. I will put the lease in my name. This is my right and this is my duty.
"So will you come for Christmas dinner?", he asks and I say 'yes' because I don't want to say 'no'.
I will go and eat my anger.
1. Franz Ferdinand - Darts of Pleasure
2. Sinead O'Connor - My Lagan Love
3. The Rapture - Olio
4. Joss Stone - The Chokin' Kind
5. Colder - Crazy Love
6. Kylie Minogue - Slow
7. British Sea Power - The Lonely
8. 50 Cent - In Da Club
9. Nick Cave - Bring it on
10. David Bowie - Bring me the disco king
The Observer reviews Absolute Friends by John le Carré : More Greene than Maugham, and bursting with a satirical indignation that is sometimes grimly comic, le Carré brings the thriller face to face with contemporary politics and, in the process, has once again demonstrated his mastery of his chosen genre while at the same time giving lesser, ordinary novelists a masterclass in taking nothing for granted.
Family.
They appear from the other side of the planet. They call you on the day before they fly back. They taunt you with tales of their highly succesful children.
She's directing her first feature... He's marrying a model. How are you?
Well, I'm in a meeting right now, so I can't talk long.
They expect you to drop whatever you're doing (job, book, life) to attend their goodbye dinner.
Chinese, of course. It's tradition.
They are your elders, you must obey. You're slightly annoyed, but also pleased they remember you exist.
They're a little mental, because they're big people where they live.
That's what you like about them. They shine so brightly even the dullest coin in the pocket gleams in their presence. That's what you think you are. Dull.
You remember shopping sprees when you were still a kid. You saw how star quality makes the shop attendant crawl. You realised that money talks.
And so the evening you had planned at home -- skipping the oh so tempting office get together for a few hours devoted to your manuscript -- becomes a nervous rush home for a change of clothes.
Appearance, never high on your list, is suddenly important.
All prepped and eager and hungry you wait by the phone for them to tell you where to meet.
The hours pass. You hesitate -- they are busy, they have important lives. They will call, later.
But they don't. In all their bigness they forget to inform their long lost niece. By the time you ring them the tables have been cleaned.
And you sit there with an empty belly and the taste of ashes in your mouth.
